17/10/2015

My Favourite Person


This week I saw the film Miss You Already at the cinema and without spoiling it for any of you guys it was an emotion filled story about two best friends, one of whom ends up getting Cancer. I was welling up constantly throughout the film and would recommend it to anyone, just make sure you wear waterproof mascara and take tissues! 
Anyway, it got me thinking about how amazing my friends are and without sounding too selfish, how much I want to be the first one to die so I don't have to live without them. 
Slightly morbid thoughts aside, my friends have been so wonderful especially these past four or so months when things have gotten really tough. My mental and physical health took a massive decline but luckily I have a great support network and I'm feeling back to my old self more and more each day. 

One friend in particular though has been there for me, not only these past four months, but the past 8 or so years. My beautiful best friend Alice has been there through thick and thin, always messaging me to check in and recently has been my main source of motivation. Even when she lived 500 miles away in Paris working full time or when she had her finals to revise for, she always had time for me.

Whether that be something as simple as getting me out of bed or when I've thought about taking my own life, this girl would drop anything to make sure I'm okay. She's been there for me through all my break ups and cheering me through all my achievements. She's the reason I had the guts to quit the job where I was discriminated against for my gender and illness. She's the reason I went on my first ever holiday away from my parents. She's the reason I stood up to my father and stopped letting him control my life decisions. She's basically the reason I'm here today and for that I owe her so much. 

My bestie, my bae, my cheerleader, my perfect Perfs, my main gal, my fellow Kesha fan, my ride or die - whatever I choose to call her, she will always be my best friend. There's a handful of people I know I'll always be friends with and she is for sure one of them. We've done some amazing things together and also some pretty stupid things but hey, it's all a learning curve and the important part is that we were there together for it all. I'm scared for the future and what it'll bring but knowing she'll be there along the way supporting me makes it a hell of a lot easier. 

If one of your friends suffers from anxiety or depression, take it from me, messaging them a simple 'how are you' makes the whole world of difference. Even if they don't reply, it means so much to know that someone is thinking of you when you feel totally alone. 
Or if you've drifted from your bestie or you've just been too busy to talk, message them now and tell them how much they mean cos life's too short to let them slip away. 

Much love to you all and Alice, if you're reading this, I'm sorry for posting these old photos for every one to see. Sorry not sorry. We look fabulous. 

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